Strings of Detachment

I wish I could convey

my feelings to you properly

Then I’d be able to tell you

how much I loathe you

how much I love you

how much it pains me to know

that I’ll never talk to you again

To have to see you with her

and him

traces of them still left in this hole

that we once called home

You walked across

every dream I conjured up

laughed cynically

at my amour

I never felt such hatred

absolute repulsion

Yet I can still feel you

rolling over me in waves of passion

heavy manipulation

coupled in with strings of attachment

I wish I could make you understand

That this malice isn’t so simple

it’s rooted in my gut

planted seeds inside my veins

it scared me so to wish for your downfall

But down you went

and I finally smiled